Badly phrased is still said

Here are first reactions to asking my professor about how I might start working or learning more about photography. I asked if working as an assistant would be appropriate or wise. Fortunately she asks the right questions so I did indeed say that I'm very interested in photography as a profession. Of course that is a long answer so we are talking later. I like to think she didn't think it's a horrible idea and not tell me!

I dare not consider whether I have enough "talent" or whatever inborn characteristic makes you good. Does it matter what I think? Does it matter what others think either? I do think I could work hard at this, if I can keep up the energy, and that's more important. Who knows, I could have been good at Psychology (wait, aren't I?) but I don't love it.

Also, there is a large format class next fall and I would give a kidney to get into it. I don't know my chances yet. The prof teaching that won a Guggenheim so he must have something interesting going on.

Two funny things: I would have held my tongue if I'd had more sleep last night. Also, the prof referred to my statement as "coming out" which is marvelous. It's accurate, and there's added irony because I have been open about my life in class, but I didn't find it appropriate to talk about being bi. I certainly would have mentioned a girlfriend if I'd had one. I can take naked photos without being a creep this way. And I'm not a creep because my photos are classy.